i am THANKFUL FOR....

...SO THANKFUL FOR SO MANY THINGS AND SO MUCH... EACH MOMENT ..EVEN WHEN iAM "HURTING" ....i APPRECIATE ALL THE GOOD IN LIFE and all that STUFF......
BUT WHAT I VALUE THE MOST , THE GREATEST JOY IN MY LIFE, THE VERY BEST i HAVE EXPERIENCED,i CAN NOT REACH OUT AND TOUCH.... THOSE I ONCE HELD SO CLOSE.... i don't BELIEVE IT IS SUPPOSED TO BE THIS WAY...And i do not know how to make it right