a little SPACE....i arranged my world....

INVITED THE PEOPLE I LOVE TO JOIN ME....
guess it was like when i was very young.....Playing house, finger painting ,climbing in the tree...
DRESSING UP WITH FAIRY WINGS....MAKING MUSIC & COLORING IT ALL SO VERY CAREFULLY ....(MOST OF THE TIME "STAYING WITH IN THE LINES").
this life.... WAS VERY SATISFYING ...... Worlds/spaces/ ROOMS of MINE....Where loved ones move about....Dancing .....Doors open from both sides.
sparkling eyes mirror
reflecting the Warmth & Joy .....Ahhhh & Wonder!
then..... i OPENED NEW DOORS.... many PEOPLE HAVE" THEIR "SPACE"
so unfamiliar ....Other wordily to me....Words i do not comprehend .
NOT THE PLEASANT FANTASY i DREAMed....BUT... THE NIGHTMARE KIND... Dark and Loud with Teeth and Claws and Menacing. Foreboding eyes ....Waste and Wanton ......and once moore .......
am i; a young child who does not belong.... and...... this time do not wish to.
i have memories... i feel , i believe they are real ...i was there....
(did no one else attemd the celabration? )
One perhaps....
should not open doors with out knocking...or go searching for softness and self.... Through keyholes.
So alone.......please just a littel while longer.....
Feel as though i am in love with a time that never was